Thursday, March 29, 2007
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
Before I fall asleep, here's what I ate today:
2 cheddar jack /jalapeno bagels with cream cheese
1 egg salad sandwich w/ lettuce tomato and onion
1 tuna fish sandwich
1 can lentil soup
1 green apple.
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
I just realized that yesterday's blog never saved. I haven't had any reads on this page yet. It's alright. I'm going to be brief until later, but let me begin with what I've eaten today.
It all begins with insomnia. Despite sleeping maybe five hours on Sunday night and into Monday morning, I slept even less last night. I felt extremely hungry--legitimate hunger--So I helped myself to a grilled cheese sandwich.
So far today I've had:
1 grilled cheese sandwich (monterrey jack)
1 cheddar bagel w/ cream cheese
1 disgusting St. Patrick's day cookie.
1 glass of water.
Last night, I started reading the above book. I'll let you know how it goes. It's a classic in cognitive behavioral therapy. I don't do well with the self-help genre at all. This one is thicker and more intimidating, but so warmly written. The author, a clinical psychologist, seems more like a priest or minister in his optimism than a scientific-minded mental health professional.
The book seems to be primarily about recognizing faulty thought patterns. I think it will be exciting. I want to stick with it.
I didn't work out yesterday and likely wont today. My muscles are still sore from that great run that I had the other day!
Sunday, March 25, 2007
The only way that I can describe the whole event was as if it all happened at once. It was not transcendent either. I wont say that it was an earth shattering experience, but it was one of those events in daily life that contains within it great deal of clarity and insight and most of all patience.
My run began slowly, for I hadn't run outdoors in months. Within the initial mile, I realsed that it is not how fast you run--this is not a race--but how much you enjoy the run that makes all the difference.
Often we exercise out of obligation, as a way of applying a Band-Aid to the wounds we create and aggravate by our own inability to live well. When we splurge on food it is to cover up something within us that we don't want to face. When we face ourselves in the mirror, swollen and wounded, we declare we will fix the problem right away. Five days in a row on a treadmill should make up for two weeks of emotional eating, the kind that comes with an inability to handle stress, depression and boredom. Hit the wieghts to cure the burgeoning waistline. Pilates will suddenly melt away the excessive flesh we have added to our frames, which strain under its weight.
It's a Band-Aid approach, a quick fix solution that never works and never fails to displease. Because of that, we associate the after-work or early morning workout more as an obligation rather than a way to feed the mind, body and soul with the goodness of activity.
By mile two I was embracing my even pace, happy to just go at a comfortable speed, not to strain my thankless legs, which without complaint, work hard to keep me moving each day. THe cold air felt good rushing into my nostrils and the warm air left a trail of steam.
On the third mile, before I stopped to stretch those diligent legs, my left shoulder began to hurt. This body was telling me something that was more clear than anything I've heard in a while: "Drink more water".
It's true. My body wasn't lying. Two cups of cofee and a soda, but no water today. None. How can I run without water. I listened.
The run was pleasing and peaceful and well worth it. I will sleep well tonight knowing that I not only did my best, but enjoyed it.
1 bowl of noodles with tahini sauce
1 bowl of green leafy salad with sesame dressing.
1 Poland Spring bottled water.
Probably the best thing to do is to get dressed right now and go for a run outdoors instead of at the gym. I would like very much to be out in the fresh air today. I wanted to do that this weekend anyway.
Today, I've eaten a 1
1 bowl of pasta-noon
1 small order of baked French fries
1/2 slice of lemon
2 cups of caffeinated coffee (shame on me!)
1/2 can of Coca-Cola
Well, I'm about to suit up for it. I'll stretch two miles into the four-mile run. That should help a little bit.
Saturday, March 24, 2007
I bought a bottle of wine tonight that I'm about to go share with some friends. My psychologist says that I should lay off for a while, but I think a little wont hurt. I got the cheap stuff: Yellow Tail Shiraz. It's only $6.99 for a bottle. It is supposed to have all these benefits.
Anyway, so far, at 9 p.m., I've eat this today:
1 Dunkin Donuts egg and cheese on a bagel
2 cups caffeinated coffee (I have only drank 3 since the new year).
handful of hot fries with Andy Capp on the bag
crackers with cream cheese
1/2 a bagel with lite cream cheese
1 bowl of pasta twirls with tahini sauce.
1 can ginger ale.
I want to make that it for tonight.